Well today marks the unofficial start to the Holiday Season in our family. DH's family is big and everyone gathers at Grandma's on Thanksgiving Day. So big that we may barely see or speak to his parents and sister since there are so many people there. In turn, his mom decided to have Thanksgiving Dinner the Saturday before Thanksgiving so that we can all spend time together.
Don't get me wrong, I love his family and we all get along great. And this will actually be one of the easiest dinners we attend (his sister started having kids before we got married). But it's still the beginning of a season that I'm not quite ready for.
I just can't help remembering that this time last year we were just beginning our first IVF cycle and were due to start our shots Thanksgiving week. Even with the huge unknown that it represented, it brought with it a level of excitement we had long been missing. We dreamed about how it would be the last Holidays with just the two of us and how different things would be this year. Thanksgiving dinners were hard last year, but they were just a little easier with the special little secret that we shared (gotta get home to get the shot done on time). What an exciting time it was!
Things are different this year, but certainly not in a way that we expected. More family members are pregnant (again), and we'll be joining the Thanksgiving Feast with just two (again). We'll put our strong faces on this year too and try to make the most of it.
Who knows what emotions tomorrow will bring but I guess we'll just wait and see... Waiting is something we're all accustomed to by now! Stirrup Queens had a great post the other day about getting through the holidays . Check it out if you have a chance. I know I picked up some great tips from her list.
Best of luck to you all as the holiday season rolls upon us!
I completely understand! There's always someone in my family pregnant or with a newborn. Thankfully I can avoid them a little bit, but not completely. I'm praying that hub and I are able to make it to "the other side" before my SIL and her hub decide to start having kids!
ReplyDeleteI will be thinking of you too. On the one hand we are so sad to have no family with us in Australia (as we moved out here on our own), but on the other hand, it is really nice to not have to see all our family who have lots of children and to have to suffer the pain of this! Sending strengthening thoughts your way :-) Bron
ReplyDeleteHolidays can be such an awful time...I've spent years thinking 'this time next year', and it never gets any easier. Remember that you have this space, and that others are feeling that pain along with you.
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Thanks for the comments ladies! @ NH - I do see that blogging is such a good outlet! Its been helpful for me to share our story but also to read about such wonderful people on the same journey.
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW: I'm sorry. I totally understand as I was pregnant last year and miscarried. I thought it would be our last year just the two of us also...I hope that it went well and you could find some joy in the celebration.
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